Unraveling

In the 16 (almost 17 – oh dear…) years that I have been mothering children, I have discovered what I believe to be one of my favorite parts.  As my oldest son is now in his Junior year in high school, I am on pins and needles in eager anticipation to see what is going to happen next.  He is a great kid, we are truly blessed.  For whatever reason God has given me a peace concerning his future.  I see that it is open wide with possibilities.  He has only a small idea where he wants to go to school, what he might want to major in, or what he wants to do for a living.  All he knows he wants to do is play baseball.  :)  I know there are some of you parents out there that probably think I’m crazy.  But, I am not pushing or stressing.  I know that I just turned 40 and I’m still not sure what I want to be “when I grow up”.  I know with confidence that God has BIG plans for this kid.  He is a great student, loves people, is full of passion, and is quite a competitor.  As my husband and I drove away from our visit to church camp this summer I expressed my excitement about the future.  “I am loving watching it all unravel!!”  The Bible tells us that God knew us before we were born, when we were in our mother’s womb, that He had a plan for us before we breathed our first breath.  In Psalm 139:19, The Bible says "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb."  I believe that with all my heart, and this is why I can without worry sit back and watch, eagerly waiting for God’s plan to "unravel".  

I know..."unravel" is not typically the word used in this context, it might be used more often when things are going wrong.  But when I read the verse above in Psalms I think of God "knitting" a sweater around a newborn baby and over the years as He transforms, shapes, and refines that child the "sweater" is unraveling and His purpose is being fulfilled. 

Becoming a Christian as an adult, I understand how freeing it is to give the reigns to God.  Knowing that I am not in control allows me the freedom to not worry about tomorrow, or even the next minute.  I am a worrier by nature, I come from a long line of worriers…and I know what it can do to you, emotionally and physically.  So, knowing that God is in control of my tomorrows and those of my family allows me to sit back and watch to see what happens next.  What will the next chapter bring??

“The first offspring from every womb belongs to Me…”Exodus 34:19

This is the verse that caught my eye as I was reading my Bible this morning.  My husband and I have been in awe lately as the unraveling continues.  We can see the Lord’s blessing on our first-born son and we are amazed.  We know that God has big plans for all our children because that is what He says in His word, but it is just so amazing watching it happen.  We have no idea what that difference is or why.  Although after reading this, maybe this is the clue.  He is the first offspring from my womb, and he belongs to God…  I am breathless as to what that might mean…  I know he is in good hands, but still…. He belongs to God, end of story.  What is God going to do with him?